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girl on the bus Open sewage and cigarettes.
She stinks of smoke, stalks down the aisle and slides into her seat like a cat. She is dressed in contradictions; thick-soled pink leopard loafers covered in spikes juxtaposes against chestnut brown ballet bun. Her posture argues with her pea-buttoned coat and straight-legged blue jeans; she perches on the edge of her seat, back curved and legs crossed straight out in front of her. She forms a literal question mark. Que pasa? (I wonder if the spikes on her shoes dig into her ankles like that.)
The smell of menthol cigarettes wafts off of her in waves, an invisible cloud that dissipates into the air with every breath--Virginia Slims, maybe? They would suit her. Tiny hands grasping a long, bright blue cylinder. Hands that slide out of her pocket, tracing circles on an ipod classic. Round-round-round-click. An unknown song makes it's way out of the spinning hard drive, makes it's way through brightly soldered joi
all that glitters is not goldwhen i was in junior high, i use to stare out of my window during the quiet bits of night, everybody in their beds and not a sound in the air; even in a busy city
and sometimes i'd think; maybe i want to fall in love with a girl one day, just to see what it would be like
then the night wind would come and carry my whisper-sighs away into the trees, and i'd fall asleep on the sill dreaming of lakeside cottages and opalescent hues of odd colors
when we went to art school together, we shared a tiny dorm room with ornate iron bars on the window and a single bed that looked up on to a smoke-stained ceiling
an old bathroom that was beautiful once, dirty glass and pink marbled tiles; a cracked vanity mirror in a frame of tarnished silver
the only things we had in the world were suitcases full of cigarette butts, inks and paints, sheets of paper and canvases that we tried to splatter ourselves onto
fine white dresses give to us by our mothers and aunts, that were ruined by paint stains o
the wire peoplethe wire people came, in all their electrical glory and beauty in black screens filled with white flashes and white text
and beneath them and their screens, the grey city never sleeps because it's filled with the insomniacs and depressed , the whores and the lover all the same who take their love in both corners and tiny apartment beds
so then they wash it down with tequila and whiskey, the sleeping drinks that put you to bed with all the glory of forgotten humiliation and loneliness, and the wanderers that have lost their legs and forgot what it is to sleep out of reach of the world
and so the people of the city lie in quiet awareness, in all their melancholic sorrow and ethereal nostalgia, or maybe the crushing emptiness that slides into being with the exhausted sleep of insomniacs who have the black ringed bag eyes of those who yearn for the relief of sleep
flowers for eyesyou're an odd girl
because you stand with that awkward straight-backed shyness that 11 year old girls have, those little ones that haven't yet been cracked and beaten by the world
do you know them? they're the ones that still have white lilies for hearts, purple-magenta ladyslippers for eyes
and bright yellow daffodils woven into their hair that look like the trees in winter, snow covered, untouchable beauty
it's some kind of sweetness that everybody use to know, but one by one we forgot how to see it
how to laugh the same way that children do, after running on rolling greens early in the afternoon
and when they run back in through back doors as the sun begins to bleed orange, dripping wet and full of brilliant, extroverted smiles that only children remember how to offer
picked wildflowers that cover the table half forgotten, from the laughter drifting down the the stairs that accompany high voices, talking in stories and riddles unbeknownest to the tall people
there's no order to the
the moon and the oceanshe use to take me walking on the beach like we were in some kind of cheesy romance flick, but I loved it because it's just like they say it is with a bulging sun like a giant hand is pressing down on it, popping like an orange and spilling liquid fire over a gleaming ocean
and you had the moon in your eyes, bright and dancing and gentle all at the same time, in looks given with laughs and delight, with guilty pleasures hidden away in some white stuccoed villa for a night away from the world;the looks that gave with all her heart and yet none of herself
if you took the sea with all it's soothing rage and beauty and smooth imperfection, with it's folds and underwater unknowns; if you took that and made it into a woman, one with white skin like the moon and eyes that never stopped changing, that was her
there were dances in moonlight, of wild unnamed emotion and the kind of gaze one only sees in those with a wanderlust that is never satisfied;in those that can never stay tied
melancholy bluesthere's a cello being played, in the downstairs drawing room
it's slow and mournful; like the blues that my father use to put on tape
while him and my mother would dance around the room;
eyes deep and arms full of things and people they once were
they're never off step; but it's graceful and quiet and full of things
that once were sad, too-- like the music they dance to
the blues devil with it's melancholy and sadness and regret
it has a home here, too. with all our faults and cripples;
we are sleeping outside in pearl-white snow, where everything is dulled and cold and blurry
not because we have nowhere else to go, when the oppression of our own thoughts become too much
but because in the morning when it's quiet and everything is far away to tired, sleepy minds
the lover, prostitute, the homeless man-- we're all the same, then; out in the snow
the tape-player in the drawing room is crackling still, a little more then it use to
it's old, like everything else in this worn out world of m
quiet chaosyou once asked me why i stayed up so late;
why i tormented myself with the lack of sleep the next day
it's the exhaustion, see. it always gets me --
even though it's all the harder, eventually
i like the numbness and oblivion that comes with exhaustion
it gives me a legitimate excuse to evade my own reality
while the quiet chaos blocks out all my problems;
sometimes i don't even have to try because it does it for me
when you suddenly discover that you're sinking down and deep
all the way into that blessed quiet in the depths of your own mind
which means that it's you and you alone, and you can forget everything else
forget the voices that scream at your from in and out of your head
this, is finding yourself at 3 in the morning
without the hacking and coughing up blood
and the complexity of getting through the day
the farthest thing from anybody or anything
and so to answer your question, darling
it's because when the world is fast asleep,
and it's quiet.
concrete townswe're the ones with the hacking and stumbling words
googly eyes that stare stare and stare again
monsters that live in your mind diggin' deep into grey jelly
you don't need these thoughts, you don't need anything
liars and judgers and who the fuck are we to care--
there's a twisted beauty about how we walk down here
with our mumbles and tumbles and shuffling steps
your rhetoric and rose-prose won't help you here
only your tired eyes, grey/white/cloudy orbs
don't bother now, you naive little bastard
nobody cares--nobody can ; who the hell are you?
'cause we're all the same in this ash-grey town
intravenous mercury that breaks you down
bruises and tosses; screams on corrugated metal
rusted bones and oily black-tar blood
roll it up and take a hit, drag deep deep deep
dance on corners, dance in smoke/smog
cause we ain't gonna live long anyways
in this concrete town
no punctuationshe`s a liar. one that lies about everything and nothing and all the inbetweens at the same time, about everything from her pains and intimate aches of the heart to the things she`s done and seen, hear and been, lies about who she is and why
but she can`t stop and she doesn`t know why if only because telling the truth means she has to be who she is and can`t run away with parade masks filled with glitter and feathers.
the lies, the fibs and everything else come to her as easy as a fish to water and she doesn't know whether she`s despicable or hurt or sad or angry or what is it and maybe she doesn't want to
and she`s not a compulsive liar, because she knows when she lies and could probably tell the truth if she really wanted to and later at night while she lies in bed it makes her sick because sometimes the lines in her mind between truth and lies and dreams and sorrows become dangerously thin and she hates what it`s doing to herself and to everybody around her
she won`t tell anybody ab
She's a WriterShe sits at her desk
Her headphones in,
The world shut out.
She bleeds for others
As words fly from
Her mind to her fingertips.
She stares at the screen,
At every little comment,
The good and the painful.
She forms her emotions
Into books and poems
To throw away the hurt.
She's a writer,
And her best weapons
Are her mind and her pen.
Do you know what it feels like...To be lonely?
To be bullied?
To be called ugly?
To be unattractive?
To be compared to other women?
To be considered unnormal?
To be unloved even though you give love to others?
To face issues that you don't in reality know how to fix?
To think that your goal you're reaching for, is unattainable?
To feel like the cause of many people's problems?
To be held up on a high pedistal that you can't get down off of?
To realize that people don't like you based on your personailty?
To at no avail, keep up your happy and upbeatness for others?
To look at happy couples and wish that you had someone to be happy with?
To stop fighting for anything anymore?
BetrayedI won't swallow your lies anymore
I can't stand your presence
You used to be my friend
But you're nothing to me now
And soon you'll be
Another bad memory
I won't be able to forget
You AgainOh, it's you again. I must admit,
The crooning has
The lies have been
And mine are like swords
It's just you and me
In this sick game
I can tell
You're pulling me in,
And I don't have
To pull you down
Sometimes, I've had
And all I see is
Then it became
I don't know
How to escape
Dark to see.
And all I can
Wonder at every
Turn I make
When can it be
By the LakeSat beneath a Christmas tree in late-March.
The ground is damp but pliant, it pretends to accept me
and then sneaks its cold fingers through my clothes
to dampen my spirits further with its chilly undertones.
I stare at the river, plump with soon-to-be April showers.
It does roly-polys over the smallest of obstacles and goes on.
It reminds me of what I should be able to do.
It runs as I grind to a full stop, and consider my life sentence.
The sky is blue; not like me, but bright and crisped;
Its been blurred by an amateur around the edges with cloud
But they don’t threaten me with rain just yet so, for now, we are friends.
The sun is missing. No one knows where she is.
She could be dead, by now. At the bottom of the lake.
Could have slunk there in a midday sunset.
She could of drowned her sorrows in the ricocheting tides
of a man made dam and its loosened throat. She could be.
She is not, she is hiding.
The sun hides from the world but leaves a blue sheen behind
to let everyone k
flower petalsi know that when we touch
that my energy is yours
that we are like flowers
because at our roots
we need water and love,
we reach tall as we can
to get to the sun
and stretch our leaves
to welcome it all;
and when we touch
i know that our skin isn’t skin
too soft for this world
when it grows rough with gravel
so i invite you back to our bed,
soft with the earth
where we can lie gently
and sleep until it is time
Reasons We Love Homestuck“Reasons we love H O M E S T U C K.”
Why do this love this web comic, you ask?
Maybe it’s just the way the fandom rolls,
or how mean Andrew Hussie trolls.
It could possibly be Eridan’s accent (WWyeh?)
or even Feferi’s keyboard trident. (---E)
Some people say it’s Equius’ broken bows and arrows, ( D →)
but what about Nepeta’s meows and roleplays? (:33 <)
We really do love Sollux’s lisp,
and also when Karkat’s pissed. (FUCKASS!)
Including Kanaya's fabulous lipstick,
it's also Rose's amazing magic.
How about when Dave starts rapping
and Jade Harley begins napping?
We love Vriska’s eight-pupiled eye,
and how John is such an adorable guy.
Or maybe it’s with all the sprites
or how prospit glows bright.
Can’t forget about Derse’s darkness
or Gamzee and all his soberness. (WHOOPS.)
There’s also this thing with Tav and stairs
which he t
ConfrontationI shed a tear
The damage will be severe
Run away in fear?
I'll fight until the coast is clear!
An artist (revised)
Staring blankly at a white sheet of paper
Can truly be an artist’s worst nightmare
An artist’s duty as its shaper
Their thoughts up in the clouds somewhere
Looking for bits of inspiration
Their eyes searching the skies
Nothing can break their concentration
Nothing can blow out the passion in their eyes
Being an artist does not always mean you are skilled
You do not need to be Picasso or Bach
It means you want to see your dream fulfilled
And that you will never give in to an art block
rough linesi like to draw in circles and triangles
creation in blurred lines and incoherent scribbles
straight lines are so...strange, cleaniness is an option
make people into a style, grace and grime
because that is how i like to see the world
through rose-tinted, soot covered lenses
i love to draw smokers because of their cigarettes
to drag out the smoke in its quiet, graceful, half-circular motions
steaming from tips of perfectly rolled, manufactured proprietors of disease
punctuation is, on it's best days, a tool for the writer
and given free rein-- optional; to be used as seen fit
haphazard commas, Capitals, dashes- and periods.
clean lines and definite borders are so strange...alien to the mind
how? why? hands shaking across the paper, streaking unsteady graphite
the line becomes two, then so many-- enough for army of lines
stand up! the bottle's empty, leave now
but...spinning... staggering to the car and fumbling for the keys
3 year old=- sleeping, drawings that mirror your inebriated bee
The Parlour IncidentOne day in July, I believe it was, I found myself sitting with several acquaintances in Christopher's parlour. It was one of those deliciously lazy afternoons which only the summer in her full glory can bring. The room had a wan, listless light to it, relaxing the other guests and myself as we languidly chatted over tea and crumpets. The air was also sluggishly heavy, dulling the senses to a slowly-blended calm engendered by the heat of St. Othniel's southerly climate.
At length, after much stimulating conversation, Christopher stood, producing a book of sheet music.
"What do you all say to a bit of music?" he asked.
"Certainly," I answered.
"Oh yes, please do darling!" Tabitha exclaimed, "he's quite the maestro."
Christopher laughed, shaking his head.
"Now, now love, I'd not go that far."
He strode over to the piano as the other guests urged him on. Ida entered the room bearing a merrily steaming teapot and more crumpets.
"More tea sirs?" she inquired, shooting sideways glances at her
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Lilyas has dedicated herself to making our community a brighter place with her vibrant artwork and infectious enthusiasm for interacting with others in our community. It has certainly paid off, as many deviants flock to her page on a daily basis to let her know how much of an inspiration she is. We absolutely agree, and couldn't let all that hard work go without recognition, so it's with great pride that we bestow the Deviousness Award for March 2014, to ... Read More